Super stuffed

Okay, for those of you who actually read these things, my latest post to Day Dreamer 101 technically isn't really a short story type thing. That's all real life. My real thoughts and stuff about my best friends new step-brother, Dean. I really started to click with him that one night. He may be perverted, but he's one of the only guys who was nice to me not because he had to be; but because he wanted to be. Kelli and Lacey are always saying how mean he is. Well, he was pretty darn nice to me and my brothers that night. And, as a matter-of-fact, he does know that I'm a Wiccan. I had my symbol written on my hand that night. He told me it was "cool." Seriously, I'm tres impressed. Now I truly don't know what he is. All of the entry is true. ALL OF IT. I am a teenage werewolf struggling with what to do right now. And, for the record, I have no idea what I am going to do. Not just about Dean, but with everything. This new pack; new responsibility. I can't stand to be around most humans now! Its so different. I always, always, walk alone now. I don't talk to anyone or make eye contact. I try not to talk to the teachers so much or give anything away that I'm different. Like now, I'm starting not to care if people know. I am proud to be what I am, and I wouldn't change it for the world. Humans can judge me all they want, but I'll always know in my heart that this is where I'm supposed to be. This is what's supposed to happen. When I hit my maturity age, I know something big is going to happen. I've seen glimpses of it. Yes, I have vision type things. That's just one thing that I know will get stronger when I'm of age. I used to have them when I was little. I don't mean like every now and again, either. I mean all the time. Even the littlest things, I'd have a vision about. People thought I was insane when I'd tell them. I never used to understand why. I thought everyone got them. I told my grandmother, she understood. She knew what was going on. But no one else did. That's why I miss her, she knew about all of this. Even the things I have yet to learn. I guess that was her reason for not telling me sooner: because she wanted me to feel it for myself. But okay, cool by me. I think it'll be a pretty fun ride. I'd better go before my father sees me typing; oh, one last thing, my parents have no idea about this. But then again, I don't know if any one's do. Hopefully I'll get to post again, but until then, au revoir.

Wow.

Haven't been on here in forever. Breaks coming, so I'll just post then instead of now. =]

So many complications!

Mike broke up with Beth. Now how am I supposed to not like him? Gah! Stupid de-.... yeah that. Why did he have to go and do it?! I mean, Beth was the whole reason why I could convince myself that it wasn't going to happen. But you know what, I have a "feeling" that it will. I don't want to, you know, go out with him or anything. Well, I do, but I'm afraid that the secrets will come out more and people would start to look at me funny. Especially at lunch. I sit with a bunch of people and talking about what we talk about in front of them wouldn't be wise. People already think I'm weird for talking to him at all. But he's not so bad if they knew why he acted out the way that he does. He does a lot more stuff than Cathrine does. Well, that I know of at least. But, I don't know. It's all kind of weird right now. All the irritating dreams that seem to be coming up more than before. More and more out-of-the-ordinary urges that come. I don't know what's going to happen when I get to 14, but I know it's going to be big. And Mike's going to be around. Maybe even have something to do with it. If I can only figure out what's going to happen, maybe it'll be easier t deal with. But at 11:45 on April 4th, I ave a feeling it's just all going to come at once. And then maybe other things will come as the time passes. I need to find out what's going on. But I haven't the faintest idea how to start.